Peek-a-boo!

- It’s almost Friday – which leads into a very busy weekend for us here at the Hommel house. Tomorrow, I have my very meeting with Cee and possibly some other ladies from Grace Point, we are going to start reading Beth Moore’s study, Breaking Free: Making Liberty in Christ a Reality which I am super excited about! I started this study almost two years ago, got about three weeks into it, and then somewhere along the line, stopped and did not return. I know right now, more than ever – I most certainly need to remember that liberty in Christ.

- I am so super excited to be fellowshipping with people from Grace Point again, I’ve felt all out of sorts with people lately. Perhaps it’s been because I’ve been working, perhaps it’s been because I’ve been so critical of the Bible, scriptures, Protestantism (is that even a word?), and everything else religious lately (please no smart comments about relationship over religion – I won’t even publish them – seriously).

- These last few weeks, I have become more and more dependent on God. As some of you might know, I recently lost my job – which was incredibly difficult for me, but as I’ve worked through it with God (and am still doing so) I am coming to terms with the deep dissappointment and other assortment of feelings that came with that and those involved. It is difficult to lose one’s job, to lose one’s friends associated with that job – all this when you really needed that job, creates such a dependence on God. That or bitterness. It’s a choice and since I struggle with bitterness I decided to for once choose not to be bitter, even with those who unknowingly hurt my feelings over and over.

- I am so grateful for my best friend Barbie, she has been my pillar of strength through these last few weeks, when I’ve broken down from the stress and cried on the phone, she’s been there; when I didn’t know what to do – she’s been there. I am so blessed by God to have her in my life and so grateful for her. Thank you Dr. Barbie for being there for me!

- I am so grateful that God has been pouring out some amazing and godly women into life recently through Grace Point! I know God is sending the most amazing people into my life right now, He is so good to me – when I need it the most and deserve it the least.

- I am so excited that our friends the Youngs are coming up from Utah this weekend! We haven’t seen them since before Anya was walking! We had a blast when we went to Utah to visit them for Pioneer Day weekend in 2006 – Isaac made some amazing homemade ice cream, we did karoke, went to the temple’s vistors center – just a ton of fun. And since Veronica was my MySpaz friend – we MySpaced together. Since we’re both photographers – I am really hoping that we get a chance to go out and take some pictures together. She helped me choose my very first camera together.

Anya and Andrew riding along together. Ahhh how cute. I wonder if they’ll remember each other.

Paul watching the Pioneer Day parade

- Sunday begins a brand new series at Grace Point – which has me super excited (from a photography point of view) and of course I’m excited to see what Devin will be teaching too.

- We’ll be hosting our small group at our house on Tuesday – it makes me very excited and nervous at the same time. Why? I love hosting things but I am very particular about it. I want everything to be very clean and tidy – so I’ll shampoo my carpets and clean all my baseboards and all the doors and just go a little nuts with the cleaning. However, we have a small and modest home, I’m not quite the decorator, we don’t have a lot of space – so I’m a little worried about how it’ll all go over. I suppose I’m worried about my pride. However, I’m learning humility through God right now and I guess I’ll just have to get over it.

- Finally I want to take a leap of total faith and share something with you all that I’m totally nervous to share. In August, Grace Point is going to San Fran for a missions trip. Now here’s the deal – I’m not really interested, I cannot even remotly afford it, I don’t have time to save up for it, I don’t have child care, there’s no way I can go, last Sunday when they played the demo – I really did not want to go. BUT I feel totally, two hundred percent called to go – without even talking to Steve about it (because there is no way we can afford it so I didn’t want to discuss it with him) HE felt that I am called to go – so we both feel confirmed that I need to go on this. So I’m putting this out there. Please pray about this for us. Because honestly – if end up going on this – it’s 100% God, it’s not us. There’s no possible way we can make this happen.

In the end – God is refining me through this experience. He is placing some amazing, uplifting, and praise worthy people in my life who all point back to Him. I’m struggling right now – struggling with my dissappointment right now, struggling with wanting to be bitter, wanting to be upset – but He’s surprising me at each turn, and knowing that He’s there for me, even when He shouldn’t be, is keeping calm.